Borrowed

I kept it up because I realized
That I could have just belonged to you somehow
And I held it up because I fantasized
To not be in the place that we're in now
Because I should hate you and say you suck
But I'd move out west so I could hear your name more
But it's my birthday, what are we standing around for
You let me down cause it's unhealthy
To want someone who doesn't want you back
And you're still around, but it's just nothing
Cause a girl like you deserves much more than that
And because I should hate you and say you suck
But I move out west so I could hear your name more
And we never talk now
It's just our luck
But it was nice to have someone to clean the car for
Now it's your birthday,
and I'm standing at the front door
Just running out of time
I'm running out of time
I could have said I didn't miss you
I could have rolled down my sleeves
Then you wouldn't see your bracelet
And known I'd never want to leave
And all of my friends keep talking
Talking about what I should want
But I miss my best friend now, and now she's gone
I should hate you and say you suck
But I'd move out west so I could hear your name more
And we never talk now
It's just our luck
But it was nice to have someone to clean the car for
And I took three showers and dressed my best
You could have talked about your sisters and your brother
But when we had breakfast at 9pm
You told me those stories about your other lovers
And when you said you weren't ready for another
That's when I knew that this wouldn't be forever
We lived on borrowed time