Why Don't I Care?

Silence is my comfort but not today
Lately home has just felt so far away
Morning drags me out and it's so glum and grey again
Keep on fucking up but it feels like fun
Want it to be over but it's just begun
So I stay up till the morning and wait for the sun

Why don't I care?

Watch him crumble
I follow the trail till he's gone
Sit up high wrapped in him
But I know I don't belong

Days so glum
Now nothing is fun
Your eyes only light up at me when you're off your face
I'm so dumb
Pretend that i'm numb
Your eyes only light up at me when you're off your face