Pathological (Who I Am)

I swear on my dead body that this sentence is a lie
And everything I am is just meticulous disguise
Designed to make me interesting like the kids that have their friends
Because nobody loves me for being me, so it's better to pretend
The things I say can get maniacal
The word "liar" carved upon my skull
Maybe it's something pathological
But do you wanna know my secret?
I don't know who I am
Said I don't know who I am
And nobody gives a damn
When I'm crying out for help
Ask me 'bout my issues, there's a lot (I'm damaged and you know it, baby)
But my tongue just ties itself in knots (I'm trying not to show it, baby)
I don't feel safe until the truth about my demons has been scrubbed from my response
See, I gotta cover all my flaws
Gotta seem so perfect no one ever
Questions if I'm faking it or not
'Cause I
I don't know who I am
Said I don't know who I am
And nobody gives a damn
When I'm crying out for help
I've been a liar from the start
Makes you crazy 'cause I'm trying much too hard
I gotta learn to drop my defenses
And be truthful to myself
Oh, yeah
I really got to learn to love myself
To keep up the facade, I draw a smile on my frown
But if I slip for just one second, then it all comes crashing down
Don't dwell on what I was, just try to rise above
Through the push and shove, you know I save some love
I save some love for me
(I don't know who I am) 'Cause I
I don't know who I am
And nobody gives a damn
When I'm crying out for help
I've been a liar from the start
Makes you crazy 'cause I'm trying much too hard
I gotta learn to drop my defenses
I gotta stop hiding my intentions
I gotta see my failures like a lesson
And be truthful to myself