Dejection

Straight out of hell
Getting higher
Call up my dope supplier, kill a choir
Might turn into a mass shooter
Cut throat getting looser
Drug user, self abuser
No errors in my terror
Are you scared of triple 6?
I cut my wrists
The pale faced, Yung Disgrace
Yung Cobain
Heroin in my veins, I think I'm crazed
I'm so deranged
Suicidal schizophrenic born in evil ways
I'm someone you can't tame
Manic depressive, I'm over obsessive
The elegant elements that I am possessing
No changing aggression to you I'm possessive
The beautiful art of dejection is stressing
My mind is demented, depression a blessing
My heart is still aching, I'm longing for ending my life
I don't want it, it's Death that I'm calling
No lifeline, I'm over debating it often
Cut throat silent
Live through violence
Death is creeping
I'm the messiah
Blood flow rising
Lil schizo hiding while devising my suicide
I - I think I'm depressed
Stomach full of shit that I can't ingest
Life dejected, so neglected, live rejected, don't feel respected
That druggy, that junkie, I'll die if I'm lucky
Bitch give me your money
Igniting my body
The ashes they scatter, don't matter, can't fathom, I live for the lessor my life was an error
Cut Throat the terror
Can't talk I just stutter
Limp when I walk all because of the mixture
I put in my body everyday daily
No stopping, keep popping
Addictions are vicious
This cycle I'm living, I know I'm not winning
The horror is winning, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
Defeated, depleted, I'm pleading and sinning
My wrists are still bleeding, my knees are still shaking
The mass drugs that I'm taking
Withdrawals be shaking and aching, degrading
The saga's just starting, withdrawing from life it's live or die
I ain't choosing life
I ain't choosing life