The Cure

[Chorus]
You're my sickness, and I'm your cure
Always thinkin' that you puttin' you first
Guilt's got us runnin' back and forth
Your love is a blessin' and curse
Seein' you this way is hard for me
I don't understand your way of live
But I know that you're a part of me
Still you gotta be apart from me
And I'm still searchin' for the cure

[Verse 1]
You expect me to be in your life without making a change, that's so insane
I expected you to be right here by my side every time I was goin' through pain
I was your cure, you were my disease
I was savin' you when you were killin' me
I feel so guilty, I wanna feel free
I feel so guilty, I wanna feel free
I put you first, you put me last
We all coulda died in that crash
You shoulda put down the pills and the liquor, I guess that that was just too much to ask
You lost everything to gain nothin'
Now you the one I'm not trustin'
And you the one you got stuck with
I said you the one you got stuck with
You had to miss all these moments
You said you loved us but you never showed us
Tell me why you never act like a grownup
That's why I'm never pickin' my phone up
You were my only, I was your option
Thinkin' bout you make me nauseous
All of times that you thought you were hidin' shit from me
You didn't know that I was watchin'

[Chorus]
You're my sickness, and I'm your cure
Always thinkin' that you puttin' you first
Guilt's got us runnin' back and forth
Your love is a blessin' and curse
Seein' you this way is hard for me
I don't understand your way of live
But I know that you're a part of me
Still you gotta be apart from me
And I'm still searchin' for the cure

[Verse 2]
Why do I fear havin' you in my life?
I am so sick of you changin' your mind
I got so used to you wastin' my time
Wonder how you haven't taken my life
Always random people that you livin' with
All the hatred that my heart's fillin' with
Grew up thinkin' you were different
You not innocent, nah
If I do not like you, do I hate myself?
We share the same blood right down to the cells
You didn't care that you put me through hell
You only cared about how you felt
Don't expect my love without respectin' me
Tearin' at my heart like you dissectin' me
I coulda gave you the rest of me
But then I wouldn't have nothin' that's left of me
Feel like you're dead to me, but you're still breathin'
There's always drama, and you are the reason
You always think that you gotta compete with
All of the people around me I speak with
I used to love havin' you in my life
I used to love havin' you by my side
I wait for that call that's sayin' you died
But I had to wipe my own tears when I cried

[Chorus]
You're my sickness, and I'm your cure
Always thinkin' that you puttin' you first
Guilt's got us runnin' back and forth
Your love is a blessin' and curse
Seein' you this way is hard for me
I don't understand your way of live
But I know that you're a part of me
Still you gotta be apart from me
And I'm still searchin' for the cure