Dreams I Can See You

Figment of imagination
With the subtle ability
To keep relations vacant
A pause of constant waiting
Knowing that she’s an idea but still I’m putting my faith in
Sitting wide eyed on the edges of my seat
Anxiety rising with the tempo of my heartbeat
Pressure building without reason
I hate this feeling I need to breathe and be even
I know exactly who you are but we’ve never met
I know your beautiful but still I haven’t seen you yet
I know your scent your attitude and your hate for regrets
And that you laugh in the face of fear and applaud it’s death
But we still haven’t met yet
I’m not even completely sure you exist
I feel the hope of the present allowing me to manifest your connection in my direction
Honestly I’ve really got some concerns though
I’m second guessing the fate and fuck it hurts
I’ve never felt so weak but at the same time empowered
I get a sense of relief but at the same time I cower
A soul power surge
Running dry within
Hope is taking a purge
I know I’ll fight to win
If I get a turn so please give me a sign
Who what when where or why
Anything will fucking do
A whisper cry or moan just tell me I’m not alone
It’s not the need for the proof
I just get down and prone to lacking faith when I’m low
In my dreams I can see you
I lift my head eyes open and you disappear
Is it the truth only in my mind you’re crystal clear
And is the truth your only an escape from my fears
In my dreams I can see you
I lift my head eyes open and you disappear
I feel the energy as if you’re always here
You stole my love at once and left me questioning
In my dreams I can, dreams I can
Love at once
Questioning in fear
Love at once
You stole my love at once and left me questioning in fear
Stuck wondering why I made her so realistic
Is it to take away from the love I’m missing
Or to use her as an escape from rejection in the real world
Justifying her existence as a fucking real girl
Doesn’t make any sense though
My thoughts are caged and rattle round in my brain slow
Struggling to finalise my next vote
Should I return to my faith or give into the hate of being alone
It’s fucking hard not knowing what is and what isn’t
Like I’m a fraud pushing gimmicks
Afraid of living
As far as I’m concerned
The thoughts in my head can alter or demand anything within it’s hand
Which leads me to believe this woman I perceive in my dreams
Is either fake or real without the answer having been revealed
I hope the future persists to show me how I feel
Some how some way or someone
Tell me I should have faith and just wait
Right now I say I’m on the
Edge about to break and leap off
Way down to lay at the bottom
Settling for anything I can take
Way down where I know she’ll never be
But where I won’t have to keep searching so desperately
Pulling strings latching on watch me follow
A game of wits but I’m playing with my heart
See what it brings leading on in your shadow
My dreams beauty has taken over the show
All this time chasing what I feel not what I see
Has got me biting my own tail of divinity
So in the end it’s just me and only me
And the faith I have in beliefs
So in the future all I hope is that I find
My thoughts entanglement straighten out to align
The beauty of my dreams
As far-fetched as it seems
To create a means to my end as the destiny
In my dreams I can see you
In my dreams I can
See you
In my dreams I can see you
I lift my head
In my dreams I can see you
I lift my head
I lift my head up
In my dreams I can see you
I lift my head eyes open and you disappear
Is it the truth only in my mind you’re crystal clear
And is the truth your only an escape from my fears
In my dreams I can see you
I lift my head eyes open and you disappear
I feel the energy as if you’re always here
You stole my love at once and left me questioning in fear