The Time It Took

Stopped smoking cigarettes for two weeks
And I actually felt good for once
Can you trust me?
I know I messed up
I know it's my fault and I should just stop
Move on
Find a better way to spend time
Catch up on the things that hold me down

This year's felt like the longest of my life
I never took the time to put your feelings before mine
I wanna know what it tastes like
When the timing, the place all feels right
I never took the time
And it's weighing on my mind

I've been pacing myself now
I'm feeling so run down
I'm not happy with this
I know I'm better than this
I'm worth more than all my excuses

I'll light a match and blame the fire
When it burns down the house
And I'll be gone before it burns out

This year's felt like the longest of my life
I never took the time to put your feelings before mine
I wanna know what it tastes like
When the timing, the place all feels right
I never took the time
And it's weighing on my mind

And I been getting through bad moods
I've seeing the value of what I've been through
And I been working on my attitude
So maybe next time I can make it up to you