Healing & Hurting

Your destination
Set to the future
Fly high

Honestly, right now is my nightmare
I’m living a life I would’ve never imagined for myself
I feel so trapped
No matter how hard I try to see an exit I’m right back here
Thinking, doing, talking…

I hate this cycle
I hate who I’ve become
I hate me

I dream of just running away
Changing my name
Just disappearing
Without a trace
No goodbyes, no nothing
Just gone

I know it sounds awful
But I feel awful
Like, I’m in the middle of ocean just drowning

I forgot how to swim

So now I just sink further and further
I don’t want to be rescued
I don’t want to be saved
I want pеace
I deservе peace
Peace from my mind at least