Down and Out

Aye, don't put me on no pedestal, don't let up on your brakes
I'm honest with you now so it don't blow up in your face
I ain't one to look up don't tell no one imitate
If you look up you'll see me droppin as I fall from grace I'll only let you down down
You down down yeah, I'm down and out
I'm gon only let you down down
You down down yeah, I'm down and out

Look in my eyes see my disgrace
See my mistakes sealed my fate
See the dried tears that had slid off my face
See my back ache as I carry the weight
Weight on my shoulders and weight on my mind
My visions been cloudy the longest of times
Wait on the hour for sun to come shine
And break the monotony of my decline
Life is not stopping I've ran out of options
I'm stuck in this rut and my heart is still droppin
Heart is still sinking at least it's still beatin
It wasn't for fam I might want it to stop
My vices I leap in and then I keep sinking I let em consume until it all pop
No longer dreaming the nightmares all eat em I fight for my freedom until chains are unlocked
And if they not? Destructive forever
I bring stormy weather and lightning strike twice
Lost in my thoughts through my endeavors relations I've severed and try as I might
Can't make em better I can't make me better I can but it's hard so I fight with my life
Try to remember turn back when you entered we only gon end with some trials and strife, try as I might

I'm giving in to my vices
Meet the real me you won't like him
Love to have you as my side kick
But that's the first one sacrificed when
The hero gets beaten and battered
Good hearts are broken and shattered
A choice to be made with my actions
But will my choices even matter
Lay in my tomb of distractions jealousy overreactin
Should have done better when had her
My music is all gettin sadder
Welcome to my pity party late to the shit it's already started
And I've got a Molotov in my pocket I walk inside then bang