Deep Breath

Got my eyes closed I can hear the city sounds
Feel like I'm At peace when there ain't a soul around
Had to save myself when I went and held you down
Had to jump relationships knowing I might drown
Sacrificed everything and never made a fuss
So when I ask for something why's it feel like it's too much
When I'm the one they run to like I passed them on the bus
Like lipstick to a woman don't I always come in clutch
Fuck it let me vent this is how I right wrongs
Being vulnerable is just how I write songs
I just open up like I turned the lights on
Slowly let y'all in like the fucking line's long
Hard to enjoy my life I don't even get my weekends
Did I make the right decisions shit is so deceiving
Like a kid up at the table bout to get a beating
All this on my plate and I'm still not fucking eating
Tired of being broke when everyday I'm out here working
How many things I gotta miss putting all this work in
Dave will tell me if it ain't a struggle it ain't worth it
But I been struggling forever why I still feel worthless
How many times I gotta say next year will be better
Plus my paper thin like I put it in a shredder
And I know I'm nicer and I put in twice the effort
So how I keep getting jumped over like checkers
You know it's bad when just being alive is why you're blessed
But tell me what's the point when everyday I'm fucking stressed
In a place where niggas rocking warm ups will get you stretched
Put the heat up to ya head but it ain't a silk press
Feel like I'm a die up in this city before I get on
Get booked for a shooting on a night we got our drink on
Have it hit the net like I went and got my swish on
Philly Scoop and Philly wiki go and get their bid on
The ones that ain't being tested always got the answers
Opinions are as good as compliments from a dancer
And when you got the glow they gon shade you like prancer
Feel like I'm by myself in this like a free lancer
I don't feel like being here but music's all I got
So I put my all in it til it's zeros on the clock
Don't know where this will take me but I know that if I stop
I'll be stuck right here forever and I'll never reach the top
You ever feel like nothing good was ever gonna happen to you
Yeah, and nothing did. So what? I'm alive, I'm surviving
That's it. I don't wanna just survive
It says in these movie writing books that every character has an arc
You understand? Where's my arc?