Impatient

Lately I've been feelin lonely
Nobody by me but the homies
Makes me question who all knows me
In my head like there's no one for me

I grew up Christian so my options are tight
Right now it's like I'm just being passed on by
I know I gotta keep my faith in the Christ
But I'm impatient these nights aren't so bright

These voices in my head are getting old
The right one will come is what I am told
All I feel is my heart slowly getting cold
I just want someone in my arms to hold

Nah let's get up off of that I cannot be emotional
I got the city on my back numbers going up slow
Making all of these hard records to get out of my deep low
If you didn't think that I rapped well now you know
I'm battling myself mentally everyday
In hopes that these dark thoughts will fade away
But they never do they come back strong to play
I'm prayin to God asking him to take them away

Lately I've been feelin lonely
Nobody by me but the homies
Makes me question who all knows me
In my head like there's no one for me

I have felt unwanted since day one
Pushed to the side yeah there's no games I won
Lower grades in class but I wasn't that dumb
Mind was set on bigger things this is more than fun

Quiet is the way I been most of my life
Favorite time of day be the middle of the night
Y'all want me to snap I think I might
This a break from me wanting to die

Go listen to the process it's all there
From up to down my thoughts I shared
I seen the hate too much to bear
But if it ain't in person why should I care
Writing this song to stay awake
Still workin a job cuz I gotta get paid
Always on the move I take no breaks
I'm Focused on the mission I don't need a bae

Lately I've been feelin lonely
Nobody by me but the homies
Makes me question who all knows me
In my head like there's no one for me