Killing Myself

[Intro]
Oh, oh
Oh, oh
(Stay with Vegas on the wave)

[Verse]
In this space I'm at, so dark and I can't figure who I am
Fake persona nigga flexin', imagery for Instagram
Told you from the start his ass façade, he don't wan' be his self
Showin' signs that he weak, lowkey, it's a cry for help
Lost some brothers to that cutter, love they moms, I cry for them
In this world, I got my brothers, hope they know I'll die for them
Ride for them boys like no other, tryna keep them positive
Down to like my last dollar, ain't a thing that I won't give
Ridin' slow and my eyes low, I'm on drugs
I know my heart really gone, but I need lovе
Like, who gon' be right herе to wipe my tears? I need a hug
The street life that I live, havin' no fear, gotta man up
But I deal with it on my own, I right myself when wrong
Love yourself, to each his own, niggas don't be your bro
Like, how the hell did I survive and the world so cold?
It got me feelin' like, fuck the world with no rubber on
I'm tryna put this shit in words, like, how do I explain?
It's like I'm talkin' to myself, keep sayin' the same thing
I get high like paper planes, I'm tryna get up out this rain
Lost my cousin, then my mind changed, I wish I died that day
Steadin' doin' drugs, tryna keep from feelin' awful
If I was there with Leek and John, I swear I wouldn't have lost them
It's hard for me to love when, mentally, I need a doctor
I wish Rylo seen me now, look at your boy, a baller
Hide my pain behind these bust-down rings
All this money I make, it brought me more pain
Shit don't change nothin', but it change everything
I had to crawl when niggas ran, they left me out to hang
Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, I don't want this pain
But I keep stride
I'm runnin' at a steady pace even though one day it's gonna be my time
Tell my mama don't cry, tell my bitch to move on
You got a life to live, I'll help find you new love while I'm dead and gone
I'll be watchin' from the sky (From the sky), girl, in spirit, I'll still be holdin' on
Tryna figure out what the fuck that they want
Everybody call on me, who I depend on?
They won't realize my importance until I'm dead and gone
That shit hurt, but it's the truth, niggas be dead wrong (Oh, ah)
Callin' up to God right now (Right now)
This shit hard, I'm on my own holdin' it down (Holdin' it down)
I lost my heart at war, now lookin' forward, it'll never be found
Why everybody draggin' me down? (Me down)
Took what they could, left me to bleed out
Ma, I'm askin' you, like, can you call my granny 'cause I wanna kill myself right now?

[Outro]
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Oh, oh, oh, oh