fading too
I'll try to keep you here
Though, that'd mean it can't be over for me
I truly felt I could do better
I thought I could get over it
But I digress, regress
Now I'm confronting me again, but I'm scared that I still won't be content
'Cause I'm chasing a faraway fantasy land which was never in the plans
Can I still feel something now?
Yeah, I still feel you now
It feels just like you never left
But maybe that's because you're fading aswell
No, that's the last thing I had wanted
I thought I'd find you all of the time
But that's fucked, sorry, my mind's lost it
If only I'd unblur all my vices, I'd save us from parabolic fires
You will be lost to thought for good soon
'Cause I'll self-destruct you from my mind you once knew
And now you'll hear you growing fainter
Do you even recognize yourself at all?
You weren't planned to show yourself this time but breakthroughs will call your name
I guess it shows that we'll be going on and on and on 'til I can stop
I thought I could stop
It won't be ever as it seems
Honestly, I never felt I could leave
Even the other side of earth cannot break your line, my worth, from my mind
And it pains me, can't trace you down
I never wanted you thrown into that box
Guess it's just habit putting hurt behind locks inside my brain
You don't feel the same
Still, it's all good, I can't notice
Because I'll self-destruct you from my mind you once knew
And now you'll hear you growing fainter
Do you even recognize yourself at all?
You weren't planned to show yourself this time but breakthroughs will call your name
I guess it shows that we'll be going on and on and on 'til I can stop
I wish I could stop
Won't you excuse my hopeless romanticization?
Won't I take the blame off you and turn it back on me?
I'm so sorry that I had to...
Self-destruct you from my mind you once knew
And now you'll hear you growing fainter
Do you even recognize yourself at all?
I never wanted this for my life
But times have changed and so have I
Feel like it will show it can't truly be over before I've already dropped