Window Pain

Heartbroken pain
Hurt clearly and it's see through
Ion greet with dap and smiles
First I like to read the room
Hurt and confused
My heart as cold as an igloo
Misguided, abused
They still think that you the old you
Cuz from the outside looking in
Prolly wonder why I act so ugly
So from the outside looking in
Might be easy for y'all to judge me
But fuck you youno shit
Except some of the old shit I did
I'm talking suicidal shit
I used to slit my wrist
See Ion got a problem talking about it
I admit it
Reminiscing, inside my feelings
Pay the past a visit
Had me clocking in therapy like check ups at the dentist
The past will never get me
Guess we got a bad chemistry
Man fuck em Ion feel em
In public eye I'll play the enemy
That's what set us apart Iil nigga
I guess that's the difference
Between me and you niggas
Ion care for y'all opinions
Like I always said
Same nigga with a million or 1 listeners
Feel it from the beat
I like to let my soul bleed
Yelling and weeping
I hear my soul scream
To overcome my demons
Had to get down on both knees
And Ion ever want my God to leave
Abandon me so please
Don't try me nigga
Or I promise
Somebody gon be dying nigga
Already know I'm grimy nigga
Pass the torch Ima light a nigga
Ain't the first time somebody tried me nigga
Look me in my eye lil nigga
Shit get shiesty nigga
Already know youn like me nigga
If you know me and to the public
Bet you thinking that I'm soft
Can say I did this or that
Yeah but what about what I saw
When I couldn't figure what's wrong
Got mad and started punching walls
Old friend went against me
Hit em damn near broke his jaw
He tried to run off with a ounce
I had hawked that nigga down
My homeboy acting scary
Pussy act like heen wanna find em
Same homeboy prolly plot to set me up
Had to cut em off
Sit back and really pay attention
A lotta this shit false
Tell me what's really up
You find out half these niggas scary
Bold as hell up in a inbox
See in my public they just starting
I went up into a club
Security act like they scared to check me
These the same loudest niggas
That be frontin round these women
I seen death a thousand times
Like it's staring in the mirror
Bitch I tried to kill myself
How the fuck you think you scaring me
Hate I treat my parents like shit
Girl you think you stressing me
I can't give y'all all my energy
Still too busy fixing me
Feel it from the beat
I like to let my soul bleed
Yelling and weeping
I hear my soul scream
To overcome my demons
Had to get down on both knees
And Ion ever want my God to leave
Abandon me so please
Don't try me nigga
Or I promise
Somebody gon be dying nigga
Already know I'm grimy nigga
Pass the torch Ima light a nigga
Ain't the first time somebody tried me nigga
Look me in my eye lil nigga
Shit get shiesty nigga
Already know youn like me nigga
Feel it from the beat
I like to let my soul bleed
Yelling and weeping
I hear my soul scream
To overcome my demons
Had to get down on both knees
And Ion ever want my God to leave
Abandon me so please
Don't try me nigga
Or I promise
Somebody gon be dying nigga
Already know I'm grimy nigga