Wishes

What am I to do with a heart full of stitches
All i have left is a mind full of wishes
Can i close my eyes for a moment and ignore it all
But at the end of the day all I have is my wishes

Theres nothing I can say about it
I don't even know if I wanna think about it
I go into my room and all I wanna do is sing about it, rap about it, talk or shout it, soft or loud
It really doesn't matter much I need this outta my head now
Cuz I walk with my head down on this journey that I head down
Keep telling everyone I'm okay
Still tryna find love theres no way
You can't go back to the old days they told me
But i aint never gonna make it playing your games
I'm done with it
All the people that stabbed me in the back just screw you just do you
My back still hurts from the knife you had I don't care about the new you
I trusted you but every time I look into the past I wonder was it real
Man whats the deal do you know how it feels to tremble in fear with a face full a tears
I look in the mirror
I see a different version of myself but one things clear
Theres nothing I can say to myself cuz I did what I could but still nobodies here

What am I to do with a heart full of stitches
All I have left is a mind full of wishes
Can I close my eyes for a moment and ignore it all
But at the end of the day all I have is my wishes

I feel it everyday when I wake up
When I go to the bathroom and look at myself
And I think about everyone I tried help
And the lies that they told me i took it fell
Can't even remember the last time
I was actually motivated to connect
I get shadows of feelings I think its regret
Like the emotion you get when surf on the net
Never really did like media
Its the modern tech meets graffitti huh?
I don't ever try to get involved wit it
Just give me the music and I'm all it
Cuz I'm done with the lies
I'm fed up with feeling so angry inside
I bang on the doors and yell at the walls
Cuz lately i feel like I'm losing my mind
But it ends here
And I don't need nobody else to tell me anything about what I believe in
See I'm leaving its my season I'm done grieving
I have too many dreams and seems that I finally have reason to keep moving
On the right path
New me
Yeah I like that
Hard work
Right man
Goodbye
Don't write back
Oh you don't like when I started to have fun with it
Well come on with it bout time I was authentic
Beat got sicker like I coughed in it
And I'm putting my fear in a coffin I'm so locked in if I'm honest i don't care what you call this
Understand that you lost it
You don't know what the cost is
Aight bet just give me the gauntlet
Better stay on topic Its my time
Yeah I got so many wishes
Every second time is ticking
Opportunity knocks on the door
and you feel like you blink and you miss it
Thats why I make it my mission
I don't need no one's permission
I am the cook in the kitchen
Putting the key in ignition
I'mma get someone to listen
No one can knock my ambition

I have a whole lot of wishes yeah
No one can knock my ambition yeah
Putting the key in ignition yeah
I have a whole lot of wishes yeah
No one can knock my ambitions yeah