Falling Behind

Stimulate me, let me feel the pain
Distract my mind from the black and grey
Stop the blood flowing through my veins
Please oh god just take this pain away
Every day it's just the fucking same
I medicate to stabilize the brain
Breaking, hating, suffocating
I live for the day that I can't feel a thing

I can't change what I've done
I know that the damage is done
I'm crying for some help but no one's here to save me from this hell
I can't change what I've done
I know that the damage is done
I'm crying for some help but no one's here to save me from this hell

And now I'm suffering with the memory of those I loved

I hate what I've become
I never thought that it was possible to feel this numb
I hate the things I've done
And while your living your life, I'm right here falling behind

I'm building walls around me in the hopes no one breaks them down
I built a kingdom for myself and I burnt it to the ground
I'm now living a life with anxiety at the helm
Only one thing's for sure
I did this to myself

I am the toxic motherfucker with the crooked smile
The one that if you get to close to you'll just want to fucking die

I hate what I've become
I never thought that it was possible to feel this numb
I hate the things I've done
And while your living your life, I'm right here falling behind

I'm building walls around me in the hopes no one breaks them down
I built a kingdom for myself and I burnt it to the ground
I'm now living a life with anxiety at the helm
I hate the things I've done
And while your living your life, I'm right here falling behind