Treading Water
Anti-depressants
Blocking your feelings
Holding back confessions
Now I keep in mind all the pieces you left with
Try to keep it all in discretion
For Real
I ain't got the time to kill
Quiet room, but I remember how you swear
He don't do it like me, had you biting silks
Always wondered how much mo'fucking time is left
It was minor theft, never controlling you
One day told me I'd be writing 'bout you
Taught you how to roll the blunts that he finds cute
Sever all the memories to hide the proof
Tell me "I don't know you" just to tighten the noose
And I know somewhere down in there, you still hold the truth
Never held you back, no, I helped you bloom
I'm falling off the tracks that you helped me build
Need to relax, I don't want to relapse
Down this hole in my chest, but your sutures came loose
Removing my gestures, I find myself slowly applying pressure
You turn to him just so that I feel lesser
I really hope that, that makes you feel better
Remarks I let go, this shit is harder than you really know
I hope you're proud of the way I handled
All of these problems that you handed off
Don't know why I still bleed ya
I've been tryna let, let go for too long
Don't know where to start
Tell your God how you tore me apart
Now I'm Treading Water
I'm Treading Water
I'm treading, I'm treading
Visions of you naked, wrapped in my bedding
Time moving fast, I move, you holding steady
Guess I wasn't ready
For Real
I ain't got the time to kill
Acting like I'm closed, just to line the shelf
Maybe, I suppose, that I needed help
Know it's been a minute, hope you're feeling well
Cause I've been spending hours down this wishing well
Used to call me coward, I guess I rang Hell
At least I can feel, this shit is starting to lose it's appeal
Starting to see all the things you concealed
I take it back, for my soul you can't wield
I like the sound of your voice
Even when you push me away
Blame myself for your choice
Only have this left to say
I fucked up, your love
Don't need me anymore
Don't waste it, I'm fading
I hope you're better off
Without me, with those pills
You take only to forget
What we've gone, through baby
I hope they're doing the trick
No feelings, don't bother
Now I'm just Treading Water
Now I'm Treading Water