Borders

I've been building walls, hanging up the phone when she calls
If she leaves a message I delete it by tomorrow
I cannot be bothered listening to y'all
Fall outta touch, I ain't doing much cause

I've been building walls, let the phone ring when you call
Wondering if you can see me when I stall
So I draw lines of defense, border rifts stiff marks on the wall
Don't trust none of y'all

He said yo, this is border patrol
Ordered to slow check suspect vehicles
Step on your neck if you look like illegal
Residents, cause the president hates your people

I don't
But fuck it I'mma need ya to go
Back to your homeland cause we the people
Don't know how to discern good from evil
Or help when our neighbors in need

So God damn it, I can't help you
Even if you need it the most
I'm so greedy and I watch you as you bleed to the coast
Fuck Mexico, we got problems here on our own
There ain't no sanctuary here in my home
And I've been working so hard

I feel like I just did it all on my own
But I know some people who helped me out when I was alone
But when they call for help, I never pick up the phone
When they call I never pick up the phone because

I've been building walls, hanging up the phone when she calls
If she leaves a message I delete it by tomorrow
I cannot be bothered listening to y'all
Fall outta touch, I ain't doing much cause

I've been building walls, let the phone ring when you call
Wondering if you can see me when I stall
So I draw lines of defense, border rifts stiff marks on the wall
Don't trust none of y'all

I look down at my phone as it rings
Thinking I cannot be bothered today
Hoping whoever it is goes far away cause
My mental state is not dealing today

So I, wait for it to stop ringing
It never stops ringing, I get a bad feeling
I try to stop thinking, all of these stops sinking
My inner thoughts clinging, give in to thoughts feeling
I'm gonna POP screaming

If this isn't important
I open up my messages and feel the stabs of a thorn in my chest
I had way too many messages missed
My friend is in the hospital with shards of glass in her neck

Her family tried to give me the news as soon as they heard
But I never checked my messages from bridges I burned
They said she tried to take her life up at the end of the term
She tried to reach out for help the message I never returned said

"Dear Joey
I've known you since we were just lil' homies
We grew up in the same town, both used to be lonely
I miss the days when we use to kick it cause lately I've been
Hating my environment, I'm tired of this dire shit

I'm like one bad day away from being fired and
I don't wanna quit, but I'm sick of being this tired man
I know that lately you've been so busy, writing all of your music
Training and getting jiggy
I just wish you would've picked up the phone
I'm starting to feel like I use to feel back at my home
My old home, you know the place that I hated to go
A war zone full of hate I would try to postpone

These dark thoughts, cause they find their way inside me I rot
It might be too late by the time you read this man, I hope not
Anyways man, I got a feeling now that this is the end
No matter what happens you know I'll always call you my friend

It's funny, with you I never had to hide all my flaws
We used to be so close, but now it seems like

You've been building walls, let the phone ring when I call
If I leave a message you delete it by tomorrow
You cannot be bothered listening to me
Fall outta touch I ain't doing much cause"

I WAS building walls, let the phone ring when she called
Wondering if she could see me when I stall
So I drew lines of defense, border rifts stiff marks on the wall
That's the reason I fall