Vent
There's a war, that's constantly waged in my mind
A battle between happiness and hurt by design
I wish I could erase it and replace it with time
But it never seems to leave when I want it to die, yeah, uh
And there's no hope for me left
I scream in a way that is silence at best
If there's a better way to get this shit off my chest
Then let me know cause right now I'm just feeling distressed
You motherfuckers be taking this shit for granted
It's true that everybody lives with the cards their handed
I try to be happy at all times, but I get depressed around
The winter and fall times
This depression has got me searching for truth
I try to keep it away while I'm here in the booth
And sometimes I think it feels more like a noose
But you don't understand cause you
You don't know what it's like to have bullets aimed at your chest
You don't know what it's like to be so fucking depressed
That you wish that your whole life would collapse
In a bloody mess in the arms
Of the person who ignored your every intent
You don't know what it's like to be ridiculed
You don't know what it's like
To see that motherfucking gash on your wrist
Know how it feels to be lonely as shit
Know what its like to be labeled a misfit abandoned
Emotionally damaged and shit
Knowing that you got nowhere to run
Knowing that you'll never have the chance to be a kid
Or ever have fun
Remembering the settling sun
You ain't never been ripped from your home
Begging to God it was done
You ain't never slept outside in the cold
On the concrete, praying and hoping that somebody was home
You ain't never see roaches or rats
You ain't never been exposed to these facts
There's a war, that's constantly waged in my mind
A battle between happiness and hurt by design
I wish I could erase it and replace it with time
But it never seems to leave when I want it to die, yeah, uh
And there's no hope for me left
I scream in a way that is silence at best
If there's a better way to get this shit off my chest
Then let me know cause right now I'm just feeling distressed
You motherfuckers be taking this shit for granted
It's true that everybody lives with the cards their handed
I try to be happy at all times, but I get depressed around
The winter and fall times
This depression has got me searching for truth
I try to keep it away while I'm here in the booth
And sometimes I think it feels more like a noose
But you don't understand cause you
You ain't never been scared of the light
Cause the dark was your home
And you scared of the bright side of life
You ain't never been broken inside
You don't know how it feels to see your closest heroes just die
You ain't never been on my side of life
It's fucking gritty and makes me wish
I actually had something to hide
You ain't never seen your parents give up
On each other and on themselves
Whenever they got stuck in a rut
You ain't never been smacked in the face
By both of them and called a disgrace
When you trying to hold onto faith
Cause I'm suburban don't mean shit to me dawg
My fam will roll in 80 deep and stomp the shit out you frauds
You ain't never walked 6 miles to school
While the rain was pouring
While it's storming with no umbrella to use
You ain't never hurt a day in your life
Compared to the shit I promise you
Has definitely been hurting in mine