Silence

Heart flutters down my windows, I hate it but you know
How I'm feelin' when you're gone, how I'm dealin' with my problems
The palpitations grow and grow, I panic now I don't know
The cause the fuckin' problem the psych's the drugs a sober song
I'm not okay, panic attacks every other minute, feels like my hearts wilting away
Love to feel like I've been failin', love to know they all despise me
DMT and tryptamine, the salvia takes over me
My mind is meltin', body bleeds, I rot and seem a sorry thing
Lights out now my thought go black, I backtrack
Hit of my bong takes the feelings back, kick back
Panic attacks bring the memories back of all the crazy things that get my heart goin
Hit your bong, my mind goes flat, I freak fuck
That last snap hit me like a truck, now I'm stuck
Panic attacks, can't enjoy drugs, maybe it's for the best, cause
I'm sick of all the bugs crawling all over my skin
Buzzing in my ears, they tell me this way, that way, my way, your way, no other way to live
Heart flutters close my windows, I hate it still you know
How I'm feelin' when you're gone, how I'm freaking out over problems
The palpitations grow and grow, I panic now I don't know
The cause this fucking problem the school the job a sober song
Close my eyes I can see right through the back
Of my eyelids
Darkness all that's left in the end, when I pass on decay in the ground
Let the ants dance on my body
Build there hive under the ground
let life repeat this horrid cycle
Cruel but fair I guess I get my own
I'll prepare for whatever I don't Know
But when I lay my cheek down onto your chest
And listen to your heart beating softy
Everything just all makes sense
The pain, the panic, all so costly
Heart flutters down my windows, I hate it but you know
How I'm feelin' when you're gone, how I'm dealin' with my problems
The palpitations grow and grow, I panic now I don't know
The cause the fuckin' problem the psych's the drugs a sober song
Serene the scene as I sit in class
And worry nonstop
About nothing
Freak my shit over perma trip
The spirals come back to haunt me
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
Should've stopped at the blotties
Oh
Heart flutters close my windows, I hate it still you know
How I'm feelin' when you're gone, how I'm freaking out over problems
The palpitations grow and grow, I panic now I don't know
The cause this fucking problem the school the job a sober song
Bump Bump
Lately I've been workin' on the overdrive
Got me freaking out, am I gonna die
I don't even know, I don't even know
Where to ask myself that
That
Oh
Hardly so
Let my body rot
Let my body rot away
Let my body rot
Let my body rot away