July

I'm doing it all
I'm holding myself
I'm taking a walk. I'm writing a lot
I was seeing someone, now I get enough sleep
I'm pulling up weeds and I planted a tree

But it feels like my heart shape has changed
And I know that things won't be the same
I drink enough water. I let myself cry
Do you think that’s alright? I hope that's alright

I'm doing too much. Like I always do
I'm hoping to have better brain days soon
The dogs are alright, but I miss you sometimes
Keep telling myself that it's gonna take time

I'm talking it out. I'm noticing shapes
I'm calling out patterns. I'm taking more space
I call up my dad. I get through the day
I'm proud of myself. Sometimes it is okay

But it feels like my heart shape has changеd
And I know that things won't be the same
I stoppеd drinking whiskey, and I’m open to love
But It isn't enough. It isn't enough