losing (the light)

Hold up baby you gon' ride with this
You be living like you die with this
I don't think it's okay if you're faded
Look me right up in the eye I ain't playing
One of my homies ain't been around no more
Need reconciliation it's a task they don't know
Living the cold summer
I went down in ashes I'm too attached
And I ain't see the casket it's way too tragic
It's way too tragic yeah
It's way too tragic
I been on the wave for sure
Ain't no trippin' in a rave no more
How it go so long until we done
And the shooters asking where you gonna run
How you blowing up my phone like you got it on repeat yeah
I been charging features that's why I gave you receipt
Lookin' down from the high rise I'm surprised that you still lie
Got it up your sleeve but you ain't gonna be asleep yeah
Drakes running on stage yeah trigger finger wave yeah
Solitude won't help when I'm hurting for your grace
Stop sending my checks I won't put it in the bank
Got links on my neck 'cause I already been paid yeah
I'm sick of taking BeReals I don't feel real no more
Medicating with the numbers like I'm counting up the hundreds
What am I even doing this for
I'm ashamed uh
I'm ashamed this kid a Christian
But this news don't feel convicting
Can I practice what I'm spitting yeah
Can I practice what I'm
Something's missing yeah
One day I realized that it's gon' be hard to get through it
These potholes just show up in streets are likely to prove it
My mask on and I don't give in when they sayin' remove it
I can't remove it
Scars are blocking this feeling of seeing the light
Afraid I might lose it