Reaper (feat. E Trotty)
This was supposed to be the happy album what happened?
I don't know life came crashing
I don't know I've been slacking
This my life now this what's happening
Questions on my mind like
Am I destined?
Am I mentioned?
Why so restless?
Wait a second, did you just decide to live your life bottled up inside?
Get it all out!
Why do all these people wanna comment online
Live a false life now weep and cry
You say your happy
You say your fine
Now put a smile on for the world to see
You're shaking now what's that mean? It's anxiety
Can't think, can't breathe, can't sleep, can't be
No peace, no ease, no cease, no release
Just let me be!
I can't get ahold of my sanity
I can't let go of my vanity
I don't wanna be what you made me be
Locked in a cage by society
Do this do that, I need help I know that
See these issues show and tell
So I help myself with God Himself
The reaper is coming beware it gets cold
If you mess around he could take your soul
My mind is racing its out of control, these thoughts in my head are taking control
Voices get louder, my thoughts getting darker, giving me energy I'm going harder
Leaving my mark just like a sneaker, keeping it out cause here comes the reaper
Time to wake up put the demons to rest
Now they pounding inside and I need to confess
But I can't hold it in and I might explode
Does it matter to you now believe what you're told
But what if I'm wrong? (HA)
All up inside of my head with these feelings
Try and give it up and they say that it's easy
Can I be the real me? Can I speak freely?
Be the you you don't wanna show
Be the you that you wanna know
It's not that easy, yes I know, why so different?
Wanna build a fire but you ain't gonna kindle it
Want it to happen but your action is limited
Deep in the cushion I'm looking for change
I'm making sense I'm not making a wage
Open the book and I hope and pray
Demons inside and they won't go away
Thoughts on the past and my mind on the future
Just like Ye said God's got humor
Floating through space I ain't landing now
Walking through fields I got landmines around
Chest bumping now and my body starts shaking
Looking all around me sinking temptations
Grab ahold, bring me under quick, don't make a sound, don't cause a fit
Keep it sealed with a quick little sip
Call me the no name I know what I'm doing
Feel that weather the storm is brewing
When it rains it pours, I pray no more
I'm asking God can you give me help? Take this pain that I've always felt
The reaper is coming beware it gets cold
If you mess around he could take your soul
My mind is racing its out of control, these thoughts in my head are taking control
Voices get louder, my thoughts getting darker, giving me energy I'm going harder
Leaving my mark just like a sneaker, keeping it out cause here comes the reaper
Brain tell me this and my heart tell me that
Sort out the truth I want the facts
I wanna feel again so I'm praying for hope
I'm kneeling but I'm not so close
Knock knock knock, is anybody home?
I thought not, I'll stand alone
New faith, new day, same face, same way
Stuck in my habits it's hard to learn
Took an L so I wondered why, fortune's a thing I need to yearn?
You can make it big or you can be a star
It's called a gamble cause you know your odds are
Stacked against you, you ain't gonna make it
Banging on the door, but you ain't gonna break in
Knocking on it now, but I'm still locked out
Not gonna flop till the word gets out
The reaper is coming beware it gets cold
If you mess around he could take your soul
My mind is racing its out of control, these thoughts in my head are taking control
Voices get louder, my thoughts getting darker, giving me energy I'm going harder
Leaving my mark just like a sneaker, keeping it out cause here comes the reaper