One time.

I take three grams of night sky and let it fall on me
500 days I'm deprived
Go call the academy
Cause I'm acting right, I'm acting good
Only god knows what it is all for
I'm tired of these guessing games
Do you love me or not?
I'm tired of waiting 'round for a gavel to drop
You say I don't act right, my eyes cold
And that's not what you like
But you made me this way
Is it a nightmare?
If I know how it ends
Do you still need me?
If I'm already slippin
If I go
If I go
If I go
If I go
Would you notice?
Can you promise to remember me young, wild, and free?
These days I've been giving advice but I won't listen to me
I use words to medicate but the emptiness is heavy
I can't say it right
Is it a nightmare?
If I know how it ends
Do you still need me?
If I'm already slippin'
If I go
If I go
If I go
If I go
Would you notice?
And I promise I'll call you like sorry
I know you don't expect it from me
Can I? Can I be selfish one time?
Can I? Can I be selfish one time?