LABEL REJECT

Sat in the back of the cab and I'm thinking
What woulda happened if I hada gave up
Pain in mum's eyes when my dad lied still
Can't cry won't mess up her makeup
Bro on my phone and he told me what they done
told him I'm active told me to Say nun
I was hater when bro had them trainers
I want the same ones I had to save up

Never found no safe haven I was alone like most of the day
everything that I love end up going away
Everytime I progress it gets thrown in my face
I see the world in a whole other shade
Ever since that Day everything turned grey
Settled for less I know, I'm ashamed
I know I'm a mess don't need no one to say it

My heart went cold and I couldn't just shiver
Don't see myself when I look in my the mirror
Ignoring my health so I fuck up my liver
I knew I was Destined for suttin much bigger
My life turned any means for the sika
Drank more and then I got sicker
Go up the stairs and my heartrate quicker
I'm Ringing and hoping my marj pick up

Mum didn't raise no quitter
But I lost my way after footie
Spent my whole wage on liquor
If not I'm spinning that shit in the bookies
Back then I'd only rap round the mandem
Truth is I didn't see what they see in me
Knew I was hard but that didn't mean shit
I was on edge begging someone to push me

Hit stu in my work clothes
COVID hit im on zero hours I didn't get furloughed
Found my drive I put it in turbo
Everything ready to go
Apart from me I had things that I couldn't let go
Feelings I couldn't control
Bro said fuck it let's go

Age 23 I dropped my first vid
I Racked up a million views in a month
Still Didn't think I was doing enough
I spent my last tenner for juice in my cup
Everyone shouting me cause I'm bubbling
Truth is didn't who I could trust
Labels were on man
I saw the p's contract
broski I knew I was fucked

Weighing the pro's and cons deep down I knew I cant miss opportunity
Soon as I signed my rights that shit went left my whole life under scrunity
I hate being told what to do
And they wanna do me
turned me to mutiny
How can you sign me for what I was doing then try tell me what I couldn't be

All this time my name getting bigger
When I'm about I feel everyone preeing
Get burst everyday I run from the truth I knew it was there just didn't wanna see it
When you got money you see through the lies
Felt alive but didn't wanna be it
I told my driver pull over stood over the bridge didnt think that the world need me in

I had so much hate in my heart
when I take it apart
it's the love that made me
I didn't think no one could miss me only
the thought of my Mum that saved me
I booked a cab back to the Main street look at the places this shit could take me
Week later got dropped by my label
I spent all the bread now I'm here looking crazy

A year half tryna find myself,
Needed help cause my head in the gutter
I took a step back and looked at my pack and saw how they Step on each other
Everyone I had back then lost interest,
so I made a choice I ain't telling them nothing
10 thousand hours went to the mountain
Came back 10 times better with substance

I got problem
I had hands to feed and I had no p left
Wanna succeed life ain't smooth sailing
Need everyone's hands on sea deck
Starting again gotta go to the bottom my motto and plan just reset
Now Bro's tryna fly up suh
and he's stuck in a average speed check

Fuck what they label me
I Couldn't find my feet
I was stuck in the deep end
I get love in the street
To the industry im the label reject
All I've done is made you look
Ima crook cause I ain't even made them see yet
You don't even know what it took
If you live by the book that's pain and regret

Only just got the ball rolling
Bro on my shoulder
He's saying it's me next
Do wrong it'll come back round
Get up when I'm down that's basic reflex
I need a change of scenery
Stare at the wall when I'm depressed
These demons haven't left me yet
From I open eyes wanna see death

Now I got everything patterned
When I'm gone I beg you don't bread me
The new shit got em feeling a man
When I needed a hand swear everyone left me
All I've got is my word my balls and my tech fleece
Anyway yeah boss just pull in right here on the left please