Feel
[Intro: King Iso]
Ay, Matt, I had this idea
You know I tried to sober up and shit you know... And um...
It didn't last too long but I had this idea, that kinda went like this
Hold up
[Chorus: King Iso]
I think that I just got that feel again
Put down the drink and drugs so I could feel again
Now I can feel
Everything I was numbing
So I couldn't feel nothing
Now I feel like a kid again
Kid again, kid again
[Verse 1: King Iso]
Wasn't even a teen yet
Before I started puffing on that green, yup
Ain't get to live a long lifetime before I seen death
Wasn't Rue before 21, euphoria seems next
I had a MD2020 MDMA in my hand
Young and fucking on grown women before I grew to be a man
Sneaking into bars, doing shows in the bathroom coked out with the fans
Had school the next day, showed up with a pistol in my pants, say!
Someone need to come and get 'em, fam
I was sliding on 'em like what's in the pan
Do you know what feel like to kill a man
Tried to overdose, but God had bigger plans
Skipping school and parked the whip and jam
Watching OGs shaving down and kill a gram
I been smoking Mary since a little lamb
Two injections in me, 50 milligrams
Forced to me by a doctor, he a middle man
They became a Big Pharm, taking over little land
It can be hereditary, thinking 'bout your little man
Turn us to a zombie, I just wanna be a citizen
They be trying to stabilize the head inside us, maybe I don't want you thinking for me
Imma sit and I forget a Xan
Never learned to hear what I'm feeling, I'm in the mental ward chilling
Floating you without the sickness cause I don't give a damn (sheesh!)
Two of my sons are in therapy now and it's scaring me how all of it expands
I ain't selfish, man I sobered up, out on tour on the bros I spent fifty bands
Didn't drink for months or even have a blunt and then I felt the urge to kill again
Guess who I'm suppressing since an adolescent just woke up and needs a lending hand because...
[Chorus: Matt Phoenix]
I think that I just got that feel again
Put down the drink and drugs so I could feel again
Now I can feel
Everything I was numbing
So I couldn't feel nothing
Now I feel like a kid again
Kid again, kid again
[Verse 2: Matt Phoenix]
Don't call my name, they say I'm cursed
Took all the pain and I made it worse
I'll never know if I'll ever change
Kinda hard to grow when you numb on everything!
Started later than a lot of y'all but I'm little closer to the finish line
Hard to stay above the water when I been claiming to be sober and sipping wine
Party people at the venue they probably notice I'm drunk but they didn't mind
After the show ask Iso to buy me a drink you know that I already finished mine
Never mind there's a kid inside, living lies while I'm grinning wide
Give me time and I'll kill my pride have everyone around me picking sides
Like isn't he the one with a vicious mind
A short fuse temper and a vinti sized
Pulled one over, while two weeks sober, and I'm still full of shit like I'm victimized
And I'm still so self righteous, lost in the happy I didn't find, yup
My ego knows I'm like this, cause and effect are the realest kind
Still, have dreams that I'm finna try
Still, technique, but it isn't N9ne
Feel, so blessed, and I feel no stress
Give me all the rest of love living life because...
[Chorus: Matt Phoenix]
I think that I just got that feel again
Put down the drink and drugs so I could feel again
Now I can feel
Everything I was numbing
So I couldn't feel nothing
Now I feel like a kid again
Kid again, kid again
[Verse 3: Tech N9ne]
Back in the day like ah the freedom
As a bad little kid having sex behind a mausoleum
With a place to sit on my face and on my rod to skeet 'em
If anyone recording me up above I'mma just say god delete 'em
Living the evil life, I'mma my numb my senses
Even though liquor was expensive
Coming to get it I'm jumping over school fences
Looking for a temptress
Parents are working, I take her home, give her inches
I was relentless
All the G wenches, the N9na had an immense list
I'm really pushing P never be false pretenses
You let her go you better know the d trenches
That was me at 100% accuracy
But the pen and the poison had really mastered me
Rapidly playing jersey putting up like it was tapestry
Leaving me to room to grow, still smoking on the weed, but the liquor I don't need it, no!
At the level I beat it, I succeeded though
No more fuckboy infidelity, shit I mean it
Lots of fruits and vegetables, my chakras well and no doctors sellin' me Ritalin
It's me a 360 litty citizen
New Life, new Daddah!
Four kids then a nigga leveled up and had a (Kid again)