Where's My Soul?

I don't get a lotta love from my hometown
Kickin' it to Motown. Critics love the ol' sound all round
My music be spreadin' in the background
No we never back down. When you blow up you go back down
Demons want the soul that I have found
And every day they gain ground. Soon they'll fuckin' surround
I kill 'em every day but come sun down
My psyche becomes a breeding ground. They rise again and we go round and round and round

Where oh where's my soul?
What on this Earth could make me whole?
Shot in the back. There's another hole
To fill it I'd give it all
Where oh where's my soul?
What on this Earth could make me whole?
Shot in the back. There's another hole
To fill it I'd give it all

I go nowhere without guidance
You feel much safer when you're in an alliance
The danger of groupin' up's compliance
My men revel defiance. They rebel against all known tyrants
When you're with me you stand next to giants
The next skill you learn is the power of silence
Remember to always say no to reliance
David can bring down Goliath

Where oh where's my soul?
What on this Earth could make me whole?
Shot in the back. There's another hole
To fill it I'd give it all
Where oh where's my soul?
What on this Earth could make me whole?
Shot in the back. There's another hole
To fill it I'd give it all

I've got this venomous poison that I'm ready to infect you with
Yeah music sucks it out of my veins, but you inherit it
I'm a scorn to my family. A weakling, embarrassment
Yeah I prayed they'd all go straight to hell. They proved heretic
And that's all from my heritage. A white boy is meant to have better, but my inheritance
Is a rusting silver spoon, poor work ethic, and arrogance
Just another lump of pestilence dragged into irrelevance
And I probably deserve it
Yeah, yeah. I deserve it
I'll be better
I promise you all I'll be better

Where oh where's my soul?
What on this Earth could make me whole?
Shot in the back. There's another hole
To fill it I'd give it all
Where oh where's my soul?
What on this Earth could make me whole?
Shot in the back. There's another hole
To fill it I'd give it all

Bet you forgot about me
Havin' fun time. Young and dumb, I run free
Starin' at the sun, got cold feet
Goin' deep into that abyss of old heat
Feelin' I'd never die, I don't think
I just act and now that's an attribute I just lack
Cruisin' down memories in hatchbacks
Drownin' in the flashbacks. Wishin' that I had that

And the time creeps close to the ending
Don't look at your watch. There's no use pretending
And now's when we try to start mending
Broken hearts, stops and starts. Is it too late to try our hand at tending
To the fire that's been burning out our candle?
I know the pain well. It's often mishandled
Hide it, enshrine it, place it up on the mantle
In the end it's only a scandal

Where oh where's my soul?
What on this Earth could make me whole?
Shot in the back. There's another hole
To fill it I'd give it all
Where oh where's my soul?
What on this Earth could make me whole?
Shot in the back. There's another hole
To fill it I'd give it all

Oftentimes I fantasize about a better me
One you could trust for much and who would guarantee
Nothing but love and riches for his family
And they would live long and happily
Instead, I'm a walking tragedy
Cause I just doubt myself into a casualty
The cycle repeats itself irrationally
But I could be that better me. Step by step. Degree, degree
I honestly thought that there was no helping me
I thought the good times would only be memories
Today I sang a positive melody
It had some major chords. Don't tell on me