I Feel Your Ashes in My Throat

I woke up a day and I thought about you
But my mind was unclear and I didn’t know what to do
You were the ghost in the night hunting me down all dressed in white
I remember your face and your taste when our tongues were so laced
That my brain was a mess of emotion and stress, was I enough? is she a bless?
I don’t think there’s a world above us to express
All of the things that are going through my mind at the time
There’s no one in this house by my side
That’s fucking right I’ve been left on my own, next to the phone, hoping for your call
It's so hard to admit but I needed your love even more that I needed myself
Now, I'm just shell of myself, empty of love, filled up with hate
What

I can feel, your ashes in my throat
I can’t breathe, crying on the floor
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The sun’s going down in the sky now it’s time for my eyes to turn blind
With the tears I been keeping since the beginning
I can’t fight I can’t cry I can’t die
I’m too lazy for these I just to wait for the reaper to come and to reap
‘cause I don’t want to live
Take my soul and my all ‘cause I just want to leave
Let me feel everything like a man that you tease
The breeze and the trees, are calling for me

I hope to see your face, in the morning
But I know I’ll never ever see it again
I feel the weight of the world falling on me
I can see my reflection in the knife I am holding

I can feel, your ashes in my throat
I can’t breathe, crying on the floor
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