Vanity

I don't think I want to do this anymore

Look, you want me to ask for forgiveness again and again
Like you're telling me my love isn't complete
I say it's more like a runaway I guess, I guess
I don't have the right to ask for forgiveness then, right?

I want to believe what I heard somewhere a long time ago that, that love is free and kind
And you're trying to act like you're all humble and wise,
But what you call love is destroying my life and it's destroying your soul (destroying your life? )
If you ever had one
I don't even think you even know what it means to love or to be loved

See, see look, look we've got so much to learn
It's like this thrifty and new words they seem perfect and then they corner us like this
like this Leonidas curse with a midas touch
And it's mighty rum listen this is the real, that gritty, gory
And gorgeous, it's like, it's like coco butter laced with sandpaper
See this is love

Of course your words, so enticing and the imagery like some messiah living and dying for me
And then asking to save me
But what, what about the freedom that love brings?
What about the protection that love brings?

See, oh, oh, yeah, so, so this is your kiss to send me off right?
Like I ain't been no shelter

Shelter?

Like those bruises on your arms ain't no badges of honor?
And these ornery onlookers they keep questioning my methods
But look, this means I am in your atrium, like ancient drones
You used to dance with me why can't you just dance with me?

You mean slavery?

Slavery?
You owe me your life

I don't belong to anyone but me
Oh wait which, which one of us is being selfish here?
Who could be selfish?
Yeah, you trying to rob me?
I can't owe what you never gave

You will always owe me
And the love you gave was never love
You are gonna always live with my sacrifices
You don't know anything about love
You are twisted and warped
You will always know my sacrifices
You're so full of your own lies