Mono

I am terrified
Unable to
Recognize The differences
Between wrong and right
I am suffering
Within the confines
Of my fucking mind
When will I realize
The life we're given

Is worth more than nothing
Is worth more than nothing

I'm avoiding my own life
My emotionally failing state
Think of how
We failed to make due
Would you be proud
Of what I could show you

I'm at the mercy of thought
Prey to my doubts
Show me my shell so I can break out
I can live no longer
If I'm not stronger
A higher purpose has escaped me

Everything I love
Crumbles to dust
Everything I love
Turns to dust

Felt like I had the world
In the palm of my hands
Only
To have our future
Slip through my fingers
Like grains of sand

Will I ever feel whole again
Or will I fade into darkness
My dreams
Haunt me with memories
Of how things used to be

I try to tell myself
You can't live in the past
Because the best things in life
Fade away with time
They never last