Smile Of The Martyr

And so I'll keep the smile of the martyr

Held back for you

To shut you out of mind

Hiding behind this grinning facade

The skeleton smile of my former joy

You won't find out how much I feel the hurt

That tightens around me and pulls me down

The feelings that serve to remind me that

I cannot afford to trust you again

The smile of the martyr will shut you out

There can be no share of the pain for you

The smile of the martyr will shut you out

You cut the umbilical

Now suffer the child

I'll wear a crown of thorns upon my head

Raise the unholy cross I have to bear

My hands free of scars

I'll hang by the nails

That you've nailed into my vibrant heart

Sold for whatever profit you may seek

A sacrifice I did not want to make

Unlike Him I cannot walk away

From this, my Garden of Gethsemane

The smile of the martyr will shut you out

There can be no share of the pain for you

The smile of the martyr will shut you out

You cut the umbilical

Now suffer the child

I'll suffer the lash of the mental whip

And the cruel rack of stretching hours alone

All done in silence

You won't hear me scream

I can't let you see the damage done to me

I'll close my gouged eyes to your temptation

Hide within myself

Thoughts of nights past

This martyr's smile tells more than you can know

Of the pain and pleasure you've put me through