Mental Help
This the last one that I'm putting out
I'm stuck within as our crowd
Surrounded by a school of fish
Swimming all around in circles
No I am not tryna diss I really think it's urgent
That we talk about out mental health and spread the wealth
I care a lot no it ain't no fucking weakness
Spend the night over the weekend
We can talk about our lives
All the messy ups and downs
Fuck these clowns putting doubt within yourself
Puff your chest and stand up proud
Got so much ahead of us
While I work my 9 to 5 all I sees unhappy faces
At the school it ain't no different other year 3 suicides
Super stressed bout all these tests and I'm not feeling at my best
All my friends they're having fun
Partying and smoking blunts
That shit is catching up fear of missing out for clout
Fuck that shit go live your dreams
Make some fucking memories
Get on your throne and stop that crying
You dropped your crown man you a king
Go find your queen that missing piece is coming soon
No need to Fret collect your thoughts
You bet not frown that glass ceiling is coming down
Shatter it and break through don't you worry if you bleed
Got some tutelary deities watching over me
'Luminating my whole life used to feeling vulcanized
Criticized for being me my viscosity is high resist the flow of comatose
I'm waking up I feel my toes
Fuck these hoes get in your bag I grew up without a dad
People say I share too much and I don't think we share enough
Growing up I thought it was my fault that bastard left
Forgave him no I'm glad I got somebody to contrast my life decisions with
You the reason my mom had to suffer through teen parenthood alone
I am not his fucking clone
College life I'm on my own I think ill miss my mom the most
Matter fact I know I will for like 12 years
Was side to side now she's on the tear side the country
I don't know what imma do when I get hungry
When my tummy gets to rumbling
I wake up in the middle of the night and I go right to her bedside
And then I whine about the time back in Aurora what a mother fucking horror
Close the door don't wanna see my moms she's bleeding
Boyfriends heated this is what I see up in my dreams at night
Now I got all of the nerve to fight all of my demons
So I put em into songs I'm just tryna organize all of my thoughts
This would help me see all of the brighter things
In life and what its got to give
I'm just tryna help you too
You can take it maybe leave it just believe me when I say
You got it and I'm sorry if I ever hurt you
Don't know what Id do without you
Made this album possible so thank you for the good times
And the bad ones too love you all just know its true
Call me in the future when you got your lives all figured out
I know I know I don't thats why I'm trying different things
And you should too keep your mind real occupied sometimes
You gotta sacrifice all of the things that mean the most to you
If you really wanna break through bend the rules but go to school
It ain't that cool to be rude you don't wanna be that dude
Reason for somebody taking their own life
Suicide hotline 1-800-273-8255 I'm glad I'm alive