No Prayers

Mama always told me my burdens were just empowered me
And it's funny how it feels when you stop working hourly
Cuz you start making plans when you're broke without a salary
I was lost in the dark praying My demons don't devour me

But let's question where the fuck I stand now
Cuz after all this slaughter all these bodies just smell foul
How many friends did I backstab with every broken vow
I can let y'all in but comfort is something I cant allow

I keep pushing through my struggles but never know where I'm going
I'm just standing in place going numb like I've been frozen
I tried to hype myself up but I know I've not been chosen
Can I escape from the prison even though the door won't open

These are the hardest riddles I've ever had to face
Cuz if I can't answer them soon I'll be gone without a Trace
I keep scrubbing my hands but some stains you can't erase
And my moral image is something that I've defaced

Sometimes I think I should have stayed in that town and became a junkie
Stuck that needle in my arm cuz maybe then someone would love me

I offered no prayers to you
Cuz dark skies are always so blue
I offer no prayers to you
It's something we all go through

I put that black mask on like here we go again
I know them all by name but these demons show me I'm not sane
And when I'm alone they like to bring up pain
I guess that's why my problems are so arcane

So much mayhem in my voice here
That's probably cuz the devil keeps talking in both ears
A year ago I was dreaming of my true fears
And a few months ago they came true

So let me ask you what would you do
Having these premonitions
It's hard enough keeping a straight face under these conditions
I've been dissecting my life with some deep incisions
I don't know if love is real I have some suspicions

Cuz they going to tell you that thelly stand by you
But Then theyll leave your dead body in the bayou
That goes for your friends lovers and even your family
It's such a ghost town when you have to question your sanity

So I offerer no prayers to you
So much harm in the things I do
They say love is pure
But we all know that's not true

So when I tell you that my demons are the only ones who ride me
I don't expect prayers that pray for my sobriety
Because I know your all fake friends who in the end just lie to me
I've been reaching out for help but they can't see what's inside of me

My souls died and this records just bribery
No one can save these feelings thell die with me
I tried to do great things but ended up on a killing spree
That's what got me burned to the 3rd degree

So when I say I love you just know it's true
And Everything I did, I did for you
I just hope I can see past it start to pull through
I mean I'm your dad so what else is there to do

I can't let you go on your journey alone
I'm no King but I'll work to put you on that throne
I feel like I've already let you down so I must atone
For the sins my own father has shown