Deep Within
I was asked one day,
if I had a can of memories
Would it have an expiration date
to forget or not to forget
Can I choose tell me baby
to drain away my heart's
resounding blues when
Just when I thought
I reached my destination
Oh I was only back to where
I first started
Becoming who I've always hated
the unbecoming unleashed
So won't you speak to me...
Bad sense of humor,
uttered softly,
spilled some coffee
you stained my clothes as well
as my clear conscience,
probably accidental
probably probably probably
But the thoughts that
crossed my mind would
leave you petrozoomin by,
unrecordable with pad and pencil
Anyway I tremble symbolizing
my temperature rising,
reminiscing the times
when I'd do anything for you
But not knowing why,
like Abraham sacrificing lsaac
I worshipped you,
you were my idol,silly
silly of me silly silly silly
But right around now,
I find no desires,
as a matter of fact,I'm biased
against all your opinions,
Like dry rose Like dry rose
once lively and
captured your heart
But now destined to be crushed
and becomes dust,
till death do us part
ashes to ashes
I once died for this world,
but now burn again
my barefeet on cold cement,
waiting on the day of
resurrection irrelevant,
small talks with you
that take us no where
I don't know
how I was able to bear,
the way you didn't show care
that's why didn't show care
I guess I harbored
resentment this whole time
Never exposed what's been
on my mind,but now you know
Self denial...used to
numb my pain
But nowadays I can't find
the novocane ways to hide
what I already know
I'd rather you shout nonsense
than to whisper hurtful truth
Just when I thought I got
all I wanted I realized I lost
just about everything
Saying what I've never
never never said to anyone
breathing murderous thoughts
So won't you speak to me...
Three words of truth shine deep
deep within me anchoring
my stormy heart
Yes I need faith,
to see what I can't see
yes I need hope,
to keep me going and so strong
I need love,your love,
safe and sound,
maybe that is all
that is all I need,
shine deep within...