DIRTY FLOOR

[Verse 1]
I'm unsure if I am something or if I'm just a scar
You become so lost when you don't know who you really are
But it becomes so easy to just lose yourself in reading
Addicted to it so that it becomes an every night thing
But soon you lose yourself to the person who you are inside the fiction
You don't like what you have, it's such an utter contradiction
Wanting just a taste, wanting just a touch of what you could have
And once you start, there is no turning back

[Pre-Chorus]
Do you know what it's like to be used to lying on a dirty floor?
Staying up so late just so I can get a taste of lying on a dirty floor
Sometimes I re-read it over and over because trying new things can be such a bore
Let my brain take me to a new place because my mind is so battered and I am worn

[Chorus]
I wish it didn't have to be this way
I wish that I could be ok
I wish I didn't have to waste my time reading
So that I can feel sort of fine

I wanna make it hit
I wanna make it hurt
I wanna be your girl but that will never work

My spirit's never fried
No it has never died
The version of me who loved him is still alive

And I sobbed behind closed doors
I begged and begged for more
But I always just end up on that dirty floor
That dirty floor