That Was Not Me

Honey I like to keep it far and tucked away
Like a debt to my heart that I refuse to pay
Cause who I was is now impossible to recognize
I'm feeling up but my past has cut me down to size
So please remember that was not me
All the faces of the characters that I could play
Seem less and less emphatic to me every day
Looking back there doesn't seem to be an answer why
Maybe I found some affirmation in an old lie
So please remember that was not me
Balancing blades over love and you are bound to slip
Now there's caution tape that's wrapped around my hearts and lips
I been working my will to the bone and it takes all my time
Drawing myself into you and not a chalk outline
So please remember that was not me
That was not me !