Patience

I did my time
Put that grind
Broke my spine
I Left people all behind
Cut the lines, fuck the signs
But I still see that decline
Close my eyes
Close my mind
It’s y’all before any of mine
Keep in mind, it’s my time
And you know I gotta
These days I ain’t stroke the pen
These days I ain’t been with friends
These days I’ve been working days that feel so long this shit gotta end
Still telling people I’m feeling great
Made a grave for my mental state
I’m feelin' pissed I’m feeling stressed can’t even fucking write like I’m thinking straight
I’m about at my nerves end
Ion give a fuck about these trends
I ain’t gotta go pretend
That I kinda care what they said
Ain’t no comments I ain’t read
Fuck a tightrope it’s a tight thread
It’s a tight space, it’s a pale face, it’s a psychopath without meds
I ain’t getting no royalties, no one supporting me, ain’t getting no hand outs none of that sort of thing
Bitch I was loitering, outside my homies house cuz I’d run away that was me as a kid
But now I go and look at me
Like what the fuck did I do to deserve
This song with this side of me
And come at you like I got cutlery
Getting payback, extra fee
Fuck who you said I used to be
Cuz if we talking real shit I had bipolar DNA handed down to me
That’s why moods change so drastically
That’s why I’m stressed so constantly
I'ma forever struggle, even if I double
Mental health will end up the death of me
But I can’t stop till I can say I’ve made it
I’ve tried so hard to make that statement
Only other option is to sell my soul but god know I won’t make that payment
But he also knows I’m out of patience
And that my head might need some maintenance
But I’ve been working hard
And livin' hard and I’m still here just doesn’t make sense
But one of these days it’s gotta change
One of these days i'ma flip the page
One of these days i'ma cut you off and just go and park in your fucking lane
But for now, it’s like I ain’t there
I show up, get blank stares
I put put a song and out of everyone I get one congrats maybe 2 shares
So don’t ever say I had a silver spoon
I ain’t getting one anytime soon
I got a better chance dying on this track I ain’t gonna front like it ain’t true
I don’t get attention, I ain’t you
I ain’t exposed like the next dude
I can’t sit here and make you understand like all that I’m trynna tell you
I did my time
Put that grind
Broke my spine
I Left people all behind
Cut the lines, fuck the signs
But I still see that decline
Close my eyes
Close my mind
It’s y’all before any of mine
Keep in mind, it’s my time
And you know I gotta
I did my time
Put that grind
Broke my spine
I Left people all behind
Cut the lines, fuck the signs
But I still see that decline
Close my eyes
Close my mind
It’s y’all before any of mine
Keep in mind, it’s my time
And you know I gotta