Stupider

Sometimes I feel stupider right after I jerk off
As if I pumped the smartest parts of me right into the sock
And sometimes I feel humaner when I allow my blood to boil
Seems to be the only way to keep my youthful heart from spoil

Sometimes I feel manly when I drink and curse and spit
Seems that all the boys I came up with came up ill-equipped
To share anything significant with anyone they know
A round of drinks around some blueprints
Round and round they go until there's nothing left to say
And nothing else to feel

Sometimes I feel actual when I'm in my car alone
As if the seat belts and the stoplights know my name and set the tone for my never ending stream of birthday selfies and white teeth
I pray to god the kids I make get money and degrees until theres nothing left to say
And nothing else to feel