Have you seen an alien, please?

I'm stagnant as the only one left
Memories of conversations that I never had
I gave you my leash, willingly
In danger of strangers that know my name
Hollow out a chest
With life at its best
Reach down my throat and take it
You know I don't need it
Control me with reminiscing
A simp for self-inflicted wounds
I entertain a dead version of you
When I open my eyes
I feel my own lies
And then act surprised
I can hear your voice
If I close my eyes
You're standing right there
I can see it all
The moment I recall
It's like you never left, then I can feign happiness
Your mouth never moves
But I still hear you
Why do I choose to live like this
The mind tricks us all again
It tricks us all again
Mingling with specters because I won't go
Memories aren't real
Memories aren't real
Thinking about it won't bring them back
Memories aren't real
Memories aren't real
Memories aren't real
They're dead, so let them rot