Lost

[Chorus]
I look up to the sky and ask how long I'll live
I don’t wanna die, I got a lot to give
I look up to the sky and ask how long I'll live
I don't wanna die, I got a lot to give
I look up to the sky

[Verse 1]
Two hands high and I pray li’ yea
Two fat lines in the late night yea
Pray for my families sake li' yea
Pray that we gradually take flight
I look up to the sky what if I ain't right yea
And if you ain't a lie then come and make my year
And it's still Class A until the day I die
No more serpents in the circle
Now the family ain't the same size
I just wave bye, you're such a snake
The love was fake, you run away
Only the realest remain on the same side
It's such a shame, so much has changed
From one today, to I can’t lie I need to make time
Can’t lie I think I'll die in broad daylight
Or on tour four minutes before stage time
Or die in some sort of organised cage figh’ yea
Lamz told me embrace, appreciate life yea
Kept the gang together when the cases came flying
Now it's pray for my families sake
Like the family made Mic
I had to cut a few ties
Who's your friends, choose wise
'Cus some are no good
Good guys lose lives
Ay, is he a rider or a rival?
Just know who you dealing with on arrival
’Cus enemies could greet you with a smile
You let 'em in the circle and then repeat the cycle
Trust the wrong person, I guess it's only my fault
I feel like it's just me, myself and Michael
If I cut you out my life it's the right call
Don't ever try call
Or send a iMessage and checking to see if I'm cool
If you was by my side when I thought I was suicidal
I apologise for lying

[Chorus]
I look up to the sky and ask how long I'll live
(Long I'll live)
I don't wanna die, I got a lot to give
(Lot to give)
I look up to the sky and ask how long I'll live
(Long I'll live)
I don't wanna die, I got a lot to give
(Lot to give)
I look up to the sky

[Verse 2]
I had to find another home
I had to have a punch up with my brother though
Always at each others throats, only brothers know
We could fight each other but you're still my brother bro (uh)
That's my blood and that's my brother
And the love won't go away
And when I think of what I done to you
Yea I get so ashamed
Certain situations that apologies can't change
Maybe we'll get back in touch
When we both hit so insane like
I just wave bye
It's deeper than you tryna assault me
Our parents never protected the old me from the adult me
Never remotely close
Probably closer to a OD
No wonder why we're fighting like a pair of old coke fiends
I think we're better off dead
Or we're better off lonely
Here's something someone very special told me
One day the acorn will grow into the oak tree
Then the oak tree is gonna grow its own seed ay
So I'm only looking out for one and only ay
Even though we don't speak
I don't want no regrets ay ay ay
I had to cut a few ties
Who's your friends, choose wise
'Cus some are no good
And good guys lose lives
Ay, is he a rider or a rival?
Will he ride out when it's nightfall?
Be at the gates when they free you?
If not then be mindful
Sometimes they claim they're down to die
They're in denial
Trust the wrong person
Guess it's only my fault
I guess it's only me, myself and Michael, he'll do
I got a small list of people I'd die for and kill too
If you ain't on that list and threaten mine
Then I'll kill you
Then put it in a drill tune
Just to play when I build zoots
Give 'em the reel like film crews (uh)
Feel who I appeal to
Spit just what I feel
And it's exactly what they feel too
You want the truth
The whole truth
And nothing but truth
Then tell my ex girl my only crime
(Was I loved you)
Apologies to my sister for putting that bitch above you
What doesn't kill you will crush you
And then it fills you with subdue
If you feeling like you're in the shoes
Of a human you once knew
Face to face with my fears
Man enough to confront truth
Stood before my sister playing this
Who can I run to, I
Shoulda been a better brother to you
Was suffering
But never knew that you was suffering too
I'd keep on sneaking out the house
Without nothing to do
To tell the truth
I just didn't wanna be stuck in with you
Even though I was only ever really up in my room
You used to tell me what to do
And when I would refuse
We'd fight and I mean fight
Like covered in bruises
But it's nothing unusual
Our mother abused us
Anyone could trigger us
And we'd just suddenly lose it
Short fuse, smart mouth
The apple doesn't fall so short
Weren't taught to calm down
Weren't amicable or social
Nah we argued 'till we don't talk
And so forth and so forth
I ain't tryna let my hidden trauma haunt me no more
Remember when I saw red and I kicked the door off
Picked the 4x4 up
Brandishing a weapon
Threatening to take your jaw off
Every thought I thought of
Was a war I fought off
Locked indoors like Fort Knox
We'd all act militant
When situations got dire
Why is it the innocent always caught in the cross-fire
Now you see the results, little girl lost
She had to be an adult, she had to see an assault
The darkness of your partner and I don't mean to insult
But when I stare in your soul
It's like I'm seeing a ghost I
Swear I ain't leaving for all the tea and the toast
You made me back in the day
Back when I needed you most
How we made it I never know
No child left to roam knows how to respect a home
I was a little homewrecker and I wasn't so clever
I thought you was just stressy guess I should have known better
Deep down you was only ever tryna protect us li' yea
I'm sorry for pretending you was under no pressure li' yea
And I know that you wake up feeling cold
Since that this a never ending nightmare
Hold your head up, know you're fed up
Wanna end it right here
I won't let you no never life's precious like

[Chorus]
I look up to the sky and ask how long I'll live
(Long I'll live)
I don't wanna die, I got a lot to give
(Lot to give)
I look up to the sky and ask how long I'll live
(Long I'll live)
I don't wanna die, I got a lot to give
(Lot to give)
I look up to the sky and ask how long I'll live
(Long I'll live)
I don't wanna die, I got a lot to give
(Lot to give)
I look up to the sky and ask how long I'll live
(Long I'll live)
I don't wanna die, I got a lot to give
(Lot to give)
I look up to the sky