Swirling

I think you thought that I was kidding when we talked all night
About music and the way our shadows hit the light
And my room is just a playground for lost cause, another conversation I'm not good enough
So we talked all night until the sun came up, I think most of the bands you like all suck
And I think that maybe you listen to way too much Brand New and Morrissey
I've spent my summers feeling younger 'cause we never grew up
It's not perfect, I admit it, but it's good enough
I deconstructed myself just to try to be a person somebody else wanted me to be
I was wrong
And every conversation that we ever had
About high school or how much I sometimes miss my dad
Or post high school in college when we all got lost
And spent some nights I've already forgot
Like when I thought that I was quitting, just giving up
I wrote some words down on a flier at a random truck stop
I talked more than I think I ever had
I was glad
I was glad
And all I know, and all I've been, it made me better but it took so long to get here
And I still fall, and I still talk to you when I feel weak now and then
I still care, I just pretend I don't
But some whole days, I think I really don't
I don't know myself at all sometimes
I'm a mess when you are not around
Problem is, I like to be alone
I'm confused, just like everyone else
Whoa
Whoa
Whoa
Whoa
Whoa
Whoa