Guilty

I was born a mystery, I'm sorry if I lied It wasn't in my mind
But I did it, I get it, so I'm sorry
Would you find a way to stay with me
In the darkest times, would you ride for me

If I break your heart, would you love me still
Love me still, would you love me still
I was born a mystery, I'm sorry if I lied It wasn't in my mind
But I did it, I get it, so I'm sorry

Dear father God in the heavens, lord almighty, god my savior
You the redeemer, you are the healer, the great I am
Father, thank you for this life, thank you for my breath, thank you for my mom
Father, thank you for my dad, thank you for my mind, thank you for my heart

Father, thank you for your grace, peace, love, and the joy that you bring
I really cannot fathom how far you are me, even though I be
Sinning all the time, judge me for my crimes, makes me wanna cringe, oh lord, I plead
Save me from myself, save me from the dark, I don't wanna be at peace

With the fact that I'm broken and I cheat
I don't wanna, I don't wanna be at ease
With the world, I don't wanna be deceived
I wanna live out your purpose for my life, I know I do not believe

That Jesus died for me, a boy from the township
Oh daddy issues, it's you struggling with pride and it's me
Mama, I need to release
Mama, I need me relief

Father, I cannot repeat the damage I did, I need to be freed
Father, you call me the ender of darkness and pain, depression and pressures
Remember you told me that many are called
I am anomaly, hey, God's favorite son

You are the one, driven by purpose and love
Fueled by rage and pride, my mother's a sword
You'll not down me down, they will not down me, they keep it to myself
Sorry, I'm not gonna be quiet, this conversation, it needs to be had

People are talking, they're saying that I am that deep nigga
Get a grip nigga, you emotional nigga, you piss niggas
We tryna get lit, not to think nigga
Why you out here tryna make us spit nigga

I come from a place they degrade niggas
You an intellect, you a bitch nigga
American wannabe, that's what they callin' me
I'm not enough for my own people

So I'm spending too much time alone
Reflecting on my character, not an avatar
While you're obsessing about Babylon, while the battle's on
Man, hollow, you're gone

In the game of life, you a pawn
What's your life about? Please enlighten me
What's your purpose in the game
I was born a mystery

I'm sorry if I lied
It wasn't in my mind
But I did it, I get it
So I am sorry to find a way

To stay with me
In the darkest times
Would you ride for me
If I break your heart

Would you love me still
Love me still
Would you love me still