Motions

Is what it is
I been going through the motions
Been with my pen
Cause it hurts when people show you
Love you don't deserve
It wake you up just like a cold brew
30 some days man I really need a reboot
And a tissue
I got issues
Really wish I coulda known
Or got myself a preview
Can I get a me too
Should I try and play cool
Really what would ensue
Really what do I do
I Feel Like
I can't evade it
this feeling of hatred
It's like I worked so hard
And no sight of payment
And I ran so far
But I never made it
Like congratulations
You participated
Now you gotta sit back
But I'm sick of waiting
Sick of saying
I'm ok and
Laying down at night
Wipe my face and
Wake up the next day and say I
Feel amazing but that feeling never staying
Slaying demons but they duplicating
It's complicated
I'm really shaken
I'm really staying far away because
I hate this situation
And I'm feeling anxious
Really that's an understatement
Really I'm not even playing
Really even though I'm praying
Nothing even working lately
Hood up know I'm looking shadey
I just need my God to save me
I just need my god to save me
Ocean eyes
I got ocean eyes
You can come and take a look
But I can't promise I won't cry
I got

I'm scared
I won't ever move on
And I'm scared
I can only do wrong
Do you care
I been fighting too long
With all my fears
I ain't getting rid of
Say you right there
But I feel so far
Guess I'll wait here
For you my God
Guess I'll wait right here my God