Honor Me Without Me

Sometimes I would simply
Like to lose control
My body is tense
From the disorder
At least still I'm proud
Of having gotten through
Through all these
Years without you
Everything is so blur
And contaminated
By no one else
But me
Anguish and anxiety
Never let me think
I'm always on the edge
Of sanity

I thought all of this
Was my dream
But now I'm trying
To get out of it
Honor me without me
While I run
'Cause I just got everything
Out of control

In this phase
All my demons surface
But ain't a problem for me
'Cause I'm already one of them
I'm after the
Thorn of Pleasure
And I'll lick
Its roses
I'm amending
All the reasons
I am activating
All the promises
Things I no longer
Suffer from
Nor think about
Nor care about
Not necessarily
Are not engraved
In my
Bipolar heart

I thought all of this
Was my dream
But now I'm trying
To get out of it
Honor me without me
While I run
'Cause I just got everything
Out of control

I thought all of this
Was my dream
But now I'm trying
To get out of it
Honor me without me
While I run
'Cause I just got everything
Out of control

I am purging my mistakes
On this train where
Silence has gained
My respect
Sometimes I can see
The seas
Get to watch a familiar
Silhouette jump
Got a copy of the Bible
By my side
Read about the Four Horsemen
Every night
I'm on the path
To joy
Wonder how much
It'll take
It really feels like
I'm on my way
To a new chance of
Life

I thought all of this
Was my dream
But now I'm trying
To get out of it
Honor me without me
While I run
'Cause I just got everything
Out of control

I thought all of this
Was my dream
But now I'm trying
To get out of it
Honor me without me
While I run
'Cause I just got everything
Out of control