Dream

You know that feeling of emptiness when you finish something big
When you lay down after weeks of working thinking about this thing
That was your life that was your everything and now you've done your thing
And now there's happiness and loneliness and emptiness to fill
For me I look up and then try to find the next big happy thing
I try to never leave my self the room to stop and maybe feel
I try to work as though i'm ruthless and have endless fucking will
I try to go on and just do this life thing never stop untill
I'm gone and there is nothing left of me except for happy feels
Of people cherishing my memory and everything I did
Because my life is just a book i'm writing for you all to read
And I don't care about me dying if the ending makes you feel

I don't know if that's good or bad
All i know this is how I feel
I don't think life will be this bad
If I just didn't chase that dream
I might be happy most of everyday not enough to be real
I think this dream will make me happier then anyone ever will

I think when people give me compliments I smile because I feel
As though my narcissism's been approved and I am smart for real
I think because i'm so damn confident I make most people feel
As though I don't need any compliments I know just who I am
But only god can be so confident he doesn't need to hear
Someone he cares about support him when he does his fucking thing
So I sit lonely in my bedroom thinking what if it's not real
What if i'm just another dreamer
What if i die and they don't feel

I don't know if that's good or bad
All I know this is how I feel
I don't think life will be this bad
If I just didn't chase that dream
I might be happy most of everyday not enough to be real
I think this dream will make me happier then anyone ever will

I think my biggest fear is being forgotten
So can you please just remember me
Cause if I know that I won't be forgotten
I might be able to live happily

Fuck you feelings
And fuck your sorrows
Fuck my life
And fuck tomorrow
Fucking everything that makes it feel like there is no tomorrow
Fuck the children fuck the past and all the men that stood so fast
To let me live this life of horror
Gave me hope and shook it over
Fuck the people thinking life is better then it was before
The purpose of it all was lost in 90's now we're doomed to fall
For every fake idea so we rejoice on all this shit that's for
The feelings and emotions
And the mind fucks that we hate to call illusions cause it makes us smaller
We like to make us tall
We like to make us tall
We like to make us tall

I don't like to lie
But i'm gonna try
To look my self in the eye maybe not cry
About all of the faults I can see through my mind
This shit fucks me over when i'm in my high
Cause I invented it to stop the lies
I am telling my self through these green plastic eyes
I don't like this admition it's hurting my ego
Feeling so naked for so many people
I can imagine the happiness it can provide
So i'l force my self to take my clothes off and cry
So that maybe you'l find it so touching you cry
You that maybe you'l like it so much I won't die
I would live in your mind for eternity
Helping you reroute your eyes to locations inherently great
Scents of prosperity carelessly roaming the skies and the fairy queen
Guiding your way to the garden of happy feels
Showing you how to use nature's way
To get your head in the skies next to heaven's gate

And the shining of god will upon you and life will seem over again
And the shining of god will upon you and life will seem over again

I don't like to lie
But i'm gonna try
To look my self in the eye maybe not cry
About all of the faults I can see through my mind
This shit fucks me over when i'm in my high
And the way I invented it to stop the lies
I am telling my self through these green plastic eyes
I don't like this admition it's hurting my ego
Feeling so naked for so many people
I can imagine the happiness it can provide
So i'l force my self to take my clothes off and cry
So that maybe you'l find it so touching you cry
You that maybe you'l like it so much I won't die
I would live in your mind for eternity
Helping you reroute your eyes to locations inherently great with the
Scents of prosperity carelessly roaming the skies and the fairy queen
Guiding your way to the garden of happy feels
Showing you

I don't like to lie
But i'm gonna try
To look my self in the eye maybe not cry
About all of the faults I can see through my mind
When this shit fucks me over when i'm in my high
And the I invented it to stop the lies
I am telling my self through these green plastic eyes
I don't like this admition it's hurting my ego
Feeling so naked for so many people
I can imagine the happiness it can provide
So i'l force my self to take my clothes off and cry
So that maybe you'l find it so touching you cry
You that maybe you'l like it so much I won't die
I would live in your mind for eternity
Helping you reroute your eyes to locations inherently great with the
Scents of prosperity carelessly roaming the skies and the fairy queen
Guiding your way to the garden of happy feels
Showing you how to use nature's way
To get your head in the skies next to heaven's gate

I don't like to lie
But i'm gonna try
To look my self in the eye maybe not cry
Bout all of the faults I can see through my mind
When this shit fucks me over when i'm in my high
And the I invented it to stop the lies
I am telling my self through these green plastic eyes
I don't like this admition it's hurting my ego
Feeling so naked for so many people
I can imagine the happiness it can provide
So i'l force my self to take my clothes off and cry
So that maybe you'l like it so much you will cry
So maybe you'l like it so much I won't die
I would live in your mind for eternity
Helping you reroute your eyes to locations inherently great with the
Scents of prosperity carelessly roaming the skies and the fairy queen
Guiding your way to the garden of happy feels
Showing you how to use nature's way
To get your head in the skies next to heaven's gate

And the shining of god will upon you and life will seem over again
And the shining of god will upon you and life will seem over again

I don't like to lie
But i'm gonna try
To look my self in the eye maybe not cry
About all of the faults I can see through my mind
When this shit fucks me over when i'm in my high
And the I invented it to stop the lies
I am telling my self through these green plastic eyes
I don't like this admition it's hurting my ego
Feeling so naked for so many people
I can imagine the happiness it can provide
So i'l force my self to take my clothes off and cry
So that maybe you'l find it so touching you cry
You that maybe you'l like it so much I won't die
I would live in your mind for eternity
Helping you reroute your eyes to locations inherently great
Scents of prosperity carelessly roaming the skies and the fairy queen
Guiding your way to the garden of happy feels
Showing you how to use nature's way
To get your head in the skies next to heaven's gate