A Player's Prayer

Love is patient, love is kind
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud
It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres
Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease
Where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away

So sad that I gotta see my homies tryin' to come up, but they don't face it
There's little that they do to come up, type of shit that you'd put shame in
And correct me if I'm mistaken
But if you're not ready to sacrifice it all then you won't make it, damn
My mind is rushin', cloggin' anything out that'll make me feel
Pushin' away the closest ones to me, afraid that they'd reveal
My inner demons and let me tell you, there's a lot
Thought I was winnin' the battle but really my soul is what I fought
Pushin' myself away from reality as if I was not
Already fadin' away from my dreams, as it seems
There's more that you seen
A crazy muhfucka with no mind but can sing
A lullaby, maybe I will show you what I'm really strugglin' with inside
Not just with the demons on my mind, but with the whole fuckin' world, it's slowly dyin'
Low life cryin'
Prayin' to God the solution to all this pain and madness is just a bigger trial

And if I was you I'd keep trying 'til my body can't take no more
Pushin' through the struggle
But I'm not you, so I'll keep prayin' one day you'll open the door
Oh yeah

Is anybody out there?
I'm cryin' for help, all my fears consumed me now I feel nothin'
How's that? you'd probably say I'm bluffing
But really, I just got use to the same old shit, I got tired
Of being scared, in the dark under the covers of the moonlit night
Man, fuck white America
Most of y'all can follow your dreams with no fear of finishin' college
It's all just numbers to ya
Some of y'all will understand what I mean when I gotta take a detour to follow my dreams
Cos money's tight around this area, no matter how hard we work by any means
My dad workin' his ass off for a hunnid a day
Shit ain't rich money but it always kept food on our plate
Thank God for my parents, I love 'em to death
Even if rapping's not something that they would respect
I got one life, two choices
I got one right, one poison
I ask again, is anybody out there?
Cos a brother's gotta struggle with this shit alone
Even though most of us are really feelin' what I feel goin' home
To the same shit everyday
Either parents fighting, siblings cryin', uninvited wars
As if we don't have enough battles already
Bad gambling habits with a settle to score
Ignorin, the bills that you gotta pay with a daughter at home
The lights go out, what's the way out?

And if I was you I'd keep trying 'til my body can't take no more
Pushin' through the struggle
But I'm not you so I'll keep prayin' one day you'll open the door
Oh yeah

We all walk by each other with no acknowledgement
You ever thought that behind every person there's some shit that they be in?
We all fight our wars, and of course
We all need a helping, but we just keep walkin'
Feelin' like we're being ignored, Lord Amen