Are you fine?

Warning: an inner evil comes
I can't stop, these fucking damned bad thoughs
And then a voice begins to suggest sick thoughs
Like smash against the wall or hanged me on a rope
But I'm with people and
I'm trying to not get mad
Why should I feel so bad
And they ask me: "Are you fine?"
It breaks my sanity and my bones
Destroy myself and then my soul
Like every day I must hold on
Take what you can and then let go
Looking in my eyes you can see
Detachment and sense of emptiness
Descending through the maze
You will find an abyss, a worn abyss with worms and bees
Eating the surfaces
It breaks my sanity and my bones
Destroy myself and then my soul
Like every day I must hold on
Take everything and let it go
I can't face this grief, no
I can't face myself
I can get out from this
I can't give up now
And if you could see what I think
You'd never laugh again
And maybe if you had empathy
Your eyes would fill with tears
And if you could know my past
You would have no words
I suffered angwish and terror
So I ran away from
Ran away from home
I can't defeat this but
I can't give up now