Learning To Love

Thought I knew something but I was wrong
When I woke up Saturday morning you were gone
They told me to leave you alone
But it didn't make sense until I was grown
I kind of thought it would be easy
Find the one and live life happy
But all these princesses deceive
Guess I turned out more like Eve
Bit the fruit and learned I bleed
How many times do I got to mess up?
I keep screwing it up
Is this learning to love?
Try and I try but I keep getting duds
Am I learning to love?
Tell me is this what it does?
Snagging me tagging me tearing me up
Man how many times do I got to mess up?
Everyone told me that this would be fun
But I'm ready to run
Not playing I'm done
Is this what it does?
I keep screwing it up
But I guess that I'm learning to love
No one told me the process was long
Or that there was one at all
Or how many times I'd get it wrong
Now I'm singing this song
Tried to make sense but there was none at all
This order is tall
Are they asking to much?
Or am I just not enough?
They keep saying it's not you it's me
But obviously that's not true completely
Is it the words I don't speak?
Or the way I perceive?
I may think differently but genuinely
You won't find none like me
I could be your destiny
If you'd spend some time with me
I think that you would see
We could be good together
I am that hidden treasure
The one that keeps forever
Preserved in any weather
But I guess they'll never know
Won't even see the show
Judging books by their covers
You are soon to discover
Any woman can be pretty but who is she really?
Do she got a dirty soul?
If that's what you want than go
I don't want to play these games no more
It's tiring and I'm feeling sore
Jesus help me Lord
I don't even know what I'm doing no more
Be nice to everyone else
But nobody ever taught me how to love myself
Now I'm stuck here and I'm hating myself
While I stand here in the shadows watching everyone else
I'm draining myself
Giving all of me away like I'm a house for sale
And I'm stuck here and I'm hating myself
While I stand here in the shadows watching everyone else