I Met God

So goodbye home, as we face the world and go off on our own, now
So goodbye home, as we face the world and go out alone, now
I just wanna say, thank you for everything you've shown me
This is where I've grown, and for now it's goodbye home
Yeah, every time I'm in this house, trauma builds up from the ground
Look around, everything is falling down, "but Phil your family love you"
Yeah, what family though, mama, where is this love to be found
Which one Jesus, which one Judas, trauma getting super loud
Can't take it anymore, I gotta run away, I ain't playing anymore
Maybe I should just give in, 'cause I ain't gone blow, Pompeii
Heart broken too many times, hardened up just like some clay
No mama, please don't cry, don't you worry, Imma stay
Now my eyes are getting dry, super numb from all this pain
What am I supposed to say, am I broken, am I fixed, does it matter to you
And you telling me you hurt, I ain't flattering you
Well, what do we do now, tryna act like it's okay
Voices unbearably loud, and they screaming at each other
Felt the devil in the court that day, which side was he was on
And they manipulate me, "Phil which side are you on"
"I don't know, leave me alone, keep me out of this please"
"Son, you best watch your tone," I dropped down on my knees
Sobbing, God where you at, and before I could count to three
His fist crashes down on me
"I'm right here, it's okay"
"But God," too late he was gone
But he spoke to me that day, now I'm here rapping this song
And I just wanted to say, that he'll never do you wrong
That's the Judas man, I'm just being real
They threw me in the flames, I came out alive, and healed
I guess I got nerves of steal, sorry didn't mean to get in my feels
So when I say goodbye home, I won't miss it a bit
'Cause if I'm just being honest, past few years years can suck a
But it don't even matter, 'cause I'm still the s***
So goodbye home, as we face the world and go off on our own, now
So goodbye home, as we face the world and go out alone, now
I just wanna say, screw you for everything you've shown me
This is where I had my lows, and now it's goodbye home
Philly