Paradise

I could barely breathe on all the days I couldn't vent
Heart was broken, I was torn to pieces truth is I was bent
I remember working hard and helping momma with the rent
Cause when we was down to pennies that's when everything made sense
I was tense, so much hate that I couldn't stop being angry
Started going to church and I really prayed that God saved me
My heart was torn into pieces from all the girls that had played me
People I called my family was the ones to betray me

It's an illusion
They got us thinking we winning but truth is we losing
I feel like they tryna make us build offa confusion
I'm at this point where I think it's time for revolution
They don't want me out in paradise, and they don't want the kid to elevate
It was my birthday and people was hating cause they ain't want the kid to celebrate
Every time I try to get of the ground, they make sure that I don't levitate
Even if I'm at a mall they want even want the kid to escalate

Lately I been tryna be at peace
I pray that any negative holds could be released
I just want my knowledge and my numbers to increase
Now they see I'm heating up and I'm poppin just like grease
See I be cooking
I see from others perspectives, so that's why I always know when I got people that's looking
Not into reading, but if the Feds start acting funny then all my people is booking
Grew up in Brooklyn
I done seen solid people turn to pudding
No not deserts cause I been deserted
And if you been where I been then you know that it isn't a good thing
Nothing in life is good thing that's why I think of the positives
I don't make statements
I don't need answers to questions or sentences that's interrogative
Elevating is my only prerogative
All of my thinking is cognitive
And I think that people are opposite
I had to swerve now I transform like I'm Optimus
But I am nowhere near my prime
I know my God is divine
He intervenes at the perfect time
If it wasn't for him I know that I would died
I'm living life on a vibe
I'll do this all on my own
Don't care if there's nobody's there by my side

Man it's just like, it's like everything's hitting me at once
Like, just don't know how to deal with everything and I been tryna get away...
I been tryna stay calm I been trying not lose it but it's like...
It's like I keep, I keep like losing myself and I don't I don't just wanna be...
I gotta get, I just I just gotta go man